Stick a Fork in Me …
LOL ok, so not really. Just figured I should let everyone know what’s going on around here.
So after goofing around awhile (and crocheting… I’ll admit, I’ve been busy crocheting lol), I figured I’d get back into things, so I wrote three and a half chapters of P10, thinking that I’d be awesome and shock my beta, Greta, with 10 chapters at once. Of course, I really should have known better, all things considered. Because I thought I’d do such a dumb thing, karma kicked me, and my computer crashed. I do mean CRASHED. It was sad. There was smoke. There were tears. There was CUSSING. Especially when I realized that, because I thought I’d be smart and dump on my poor beta, I never actually emailed the chapters, which meant they’re gone. Totally gone. Poof. More tears. Stupid computer L (Yes, I’m going to blame it on my computer, absolutely). So at the moment, I’m still trying to save up the money to replace my old, dead laptop, but life keeps emptying my pockets, which brings me to …
Shortly after that, one of our cats got really sick. He was puking up everything (literally) that he ate, to the point that he just stopped eating. I won’t bore you all with the details except to say that he had to be force fed from a syringe, had to go in constantly for B12 shots because his liver was failing, and in the end (and after about 500 bucks, all totaled), we had to let him go, which broke our hearts. He’s missed every day, and the ache he left behind is horrible. If you’re friends with me on Facebook, you’re probably tired of hearing about it. Even so, that was the hard part.
My sister is here visiting from Georgia, so that’s good, and because she is here, I’m currently using her laptop, but she’s leaving in a couple weeks to go back home, which will leave me lappy-less once more, but that’s neither here nor there. The biggest problem is my eye.
Well, it’s almost healed now (thank GOD) but it was pretty scary. A week ago last Thursday, I was sitting here (actually writing … I know, it’s a sign!) when I suddenly felt like I got something in my eye. It felt like one tiny grain of sand. That’s the best way to describe it. So I thought that it’d come out on it’s own. It usually does.
It was still in there on Friday, so the hubs and I tried for TWO HOURS to wash it out of my eye, and the speck moved (to a more painful place a few times) but never came out. By then, it was late on Friday, and I thought, fine, I’ll wait till Monday and go to the doctor …
Except that by Saturday night, around 10, I couldn’t take it anymore. It was driving me insane, and I finally broke down and went to the emergency room (feeling entirely retarded for going in for a speck of dirt in my eye). At least I felt slightly better when the ER doc (who was named Michael Myers, I shit you not) told me that the regular doctor would have just sent me in to the ER anyway since they don’t have the equipment to diagnose my eye there, anyway.
So they dye my eye bright freaking yellow (IKR? Totally wanted it to stay in my eye so I could freak out my kids, but it wore out too fast, unfortunately) and took a look, and you know, it wasn’t dirt in my eye at all. Nope. I had a corneal ulcer/hemorrhage (google it. The pics are scary as hell). I needed 150 dollar eye drops (yeah, I about died, too), and I needed to go to the eye doctor.
So I go to my regular doctor on Monday (being on the anti-biotic eye drops for a little over 24 hours at that point, not to mention the antibacterial ointment I have to use before I go to bed that’s like putting Vaseline in my eye. Yeah, it’s GROSS. The doctor gives me a referral to a specialist but tells the nurse to arrange the appointment for—and I quote—a non-healing corneal ulcer which freaks me out entirely!
The eye doctor has been great, though, but she said that she thinks that my ridiculously dry eyes caused this, that my cornea tore when I blinked because my eyes are that dry. So now I have trusty moisturizing eye drops and my eyes feel much better. When I went in on Friday, she started me on steroid eye drops (O.o) and said it should be healed completely by the time I go in next Friday.
I’m only telling you all this because that’s why I’ve been sort of slow this week lol.
Another thing I found out (not about my eye or anything) is that they finally remade the forum on media miner, and the only reason THAT matters is because I was finally able to bark at them about the messed up emails for updates. They re-enabled those today, but he said that they’re only doing what amounts to a daily digest sort of email instead of real time emails like they used to. Figures, but better than nothing, right?
So about the updates …
I’ve been working on Desideratum as well as Metamorphosis 2: Legacies, so I hope that someone reads them lol
As of now, P10 is still on hiatus, and to be honest, I’m not entirely sure that it’ll get written. It’s not that I don’t like Mikio (I do) but it’s just not as exciting to me to write a story when I already know from start to finish what’s happening. It’s hard for it to keep my attention, and I know that sounds terrible, but in my head, the story has already been told, so it’s hard to make myself sit down and write it out, especially when other things that have to do with it but are also kind of separate (it’s a long story) have the ability to hurt me, too. I have explained it to some people who have asked, but…
In any case, I hope that someone will read what I’m coming up with now, and I hope that anyone who reads this post will understand and be patient with me while I try to re-discover my love of posting.
