Friday, June 12, 2009


I am really hoping that you guys can help me out a little more.  I know, I’ve asked a lot, and I hate that I’ve had to.  I just don’t know what to do anymore.  It feels like everything just keeps getting worse and worse.  Eric’s facing another two weeks off work–two weeks that’ll kill us financially.  I’m so sick of hearing people tell us that we should ‘save up’ for those off times–we can’t.  Rumors are thick that they’re going to shut down his factory, and if that happens, then I really have no idea what’ll happen.  As it is, I’ve been getting online via my neighbor’s connection (he told me that it was fine).  Still …
He’ll qualify for unemployment for one of the two weeks he’s off, but after paying for our vehicle, we won’t have money for food.  If we miss a payment on our vehicle, they’ll repo it.  If we don’t have a vehicle, he’ll lose his job for not being able to get to work.  So, food for that week or the truck?  Which is worse?  Even better?  Our water heater just quit.  The element went out, so we replaced it, but the mounting is warped so now we have water leaking all over the back room where it is, but what else can we do?  We certainly can’t afford the 250 bucks to replace that, too.
I can’t write, I can’t think, I can barely function.  I know that it’s depression, but there’s nothing I can do about that, either.  I look into my children’s faces, and I feel like a complete failure, even if logic tells me that it isn’t my fault; that Eric still gets up every day and goes to work and all that.  I feel like there’s no hope at all, and I just feel lost.  To those of you who have helped us, I thank you from the bottom of my heart.  For the emails and thoughts, I appreciate those, too.  I’m sure that we’ll get through this.  I’m just not sure how.
posted by Sueric at 6:50 am  

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